June is not a good month for me this year . I wish I can go back a year ago on my birthday :'(

Heey , I never though it would be like thhis . I'm hoping that this year is gonna be a happy year for me but not . I want last yr . The day I met you and didn't screwed up . haih , I'm broken . I got so many problems in my head rn . I lost him for forever . I love you for more than a year but see what I got here ? Nothing , not even a little of your love . I'm tired of trying and now yes I give up you , on you and on your love . I'm loveless . And much more worse than that , I can't tell it here later he wil find out so let it be . When I heard something that literally breaks my heart , I was so shocked and didn't talk too much at the school . I'm just alone and quite , I have no mood to talk to anyone . It's breaks my heart you know and I think this is the best way that God shows me to move on maybe . Yeah a sign that you will never be mine for forever , now , later , 10 years from now , in the world or everywhere . Maybe we're not meant to be together . After I got home , I called my best friends and cried as much as I can . I cried and she calmed me down . Oh my god , it was the worst day ever . You broke my little tiny heart and yet I still love you .

But from now on , let's make it fair . You broke my heart but I can't break yours cause you don't love me . So let's make it this way . Let's just not be as close as we used to . Just a simple hyee and then walk away . It's a process to get over you and move on but I don't know if I can do this thing or not . Hmmph I'm still hoping that you will come back to me you knw cause I love you more than a year . I wasted my time on you :'(

I feel so stupid and useless like a garbage . I tried not to I don't know just we'll see . You broke my heart and I swear it hurts the most . I don't want to feel that way again :'(

OH HOW I WISH I CAN TELL THE SITUATION IN HERE BUT I CAN'T CAUSE I'M SCARED HE MIGHT READ THIS , SO I'M SORRY IF I CAN'T MAKE A BETTER EXPLANATIONS . THIS IS THE WORST TERRIBLE FEELINGS IN THE WORLD BUT I AIN'T GONNA COMMIT SUICIDE .