My Insecure Life :): January 2012

Thursday, 26 January 2012

my sister , my girl and forever will be my partner in my life :D

we're sing-ing and ruin-ing songs together :D

hello there again . Today my younger sister and I were so boring and we decided to make some videos and post it on my blog . Hahahah it's cool to have a sister that have the same interested with me but sometimes she can be so so annoying like a bitch hahaha well I used to it and she used to it . So we sang this two song Break Your Heart by Taio Cruz feat Ludacris and One Thing by One Direction . Hahahaha we ruined this song together - gether just for fun .

the most stupid video I ever post hahaha I am lifess ~

Well hello there , how was your holiday ? I bet it was fun aite ? hahaha mine just eat and sleep . So I made this video and if you guys want to watch it , make sure you guys scroll down and turn off my background music first . Hahaha well this video is so so doesn't mean anything . I'm just bored and play-ed with my laptop and Ipad . Enjoy my video and thank you for reading my post . Air kiss to you gais :*

Monday, 16 January 2012

PMR CANDIDATES O:

I'm scared gila weh . Pmr is not too important but I can't fail this test . Wow , my parents gonna kill me if I fail even one subject . UPSR is nothing . PMR is something and SPM is everything . Well , someone told me that . It's true and relevan . I wanna be in form one again . I miss all the things I ever donee . I hate being serious , it's not fun weh . But I have to sacrifice this one year to focus on my study and score at least minimun 6A's in March test . Wish me luck gais . I have to pray , dah tak boleh tinggal solat berdosaa hahaha and study harder . I'm sure I can get 8A's but but not too confident . We'll see first . PMR is like 10 months from now . Oh My God I can't face it . I don't even know a thing ( taulah jugak ) about maths . That's freaking me out . I don't want to fail this subject but it's too hard for me . Well I'll try , focus on my study , focus dekat class and tuition . Pray for mee . I gtg it's 1:11 in the morning already . Byebyeee :*

Friday, 13 January 2012

Hey crush , read this properly and do it now lol just kidding :p

To my girls who light up my world with your awesomeness , thank you for being a part of my life at my past and right now and future :')

My Memories With Them :')

KRS Camp - 1 April 2011

From right - me , Aina , Heidi and Farahin . We had so much fun together in this camp . We learnt about true friendship , fun and solve problems using the right way . We're not close anymore because of we're in different class but neh , when we meet each other at least we say HYE BABY ! hahaha so gonna miss this camp so badly . I wann go back in this time !

Last Two Years - Study Group at Regi's house

Auww , her lill sister is so cute .

Hari Guru Last Year - Smilee ~

Hari Guru Last Year - My pedo partner .

Lat Two Years . Kem 1 Malaysia .

Last Year - Ainaa , I miss you :')

Kem PRS - in dorm we're partayh and partayh and partayh yeah :p

Izati's housee - Ka chick :D

Larian 1 Malaysia - Auw , memories .

Kem PRS - My familyy ~ Ashman as my daddy filzah as my mommy , Us as their daughter

Hari sukan - waiting for my turn to lari . Jojo ~

Prefect Dinner - we're getting ready to go to the prefect dinner

Prefect Dinner , meet her - Batrisyia

Ceramah Kenali Anak Kita - Syahir there !

Heyy , aren't we look cute :p

Auww my babyy .

A day before eid - heeyy meet my cousin . I never meet her beforee you know . Hahaha she's tall alreadyy . Heyy cousin *awkward*

Last Two Years - nah nothing .

Dania's open house - hikhik

A day before prs open house day . meet Ayuni ~

Meet Taufik !

Meet Jojo . I introduce dia dah tadi kan ? ._.

Meet Fazween !

PRS annual dinner - Meet Trisya , Billy , See Man , Marsya and Jojo .

and others who light up my world . Sory can't upload more picture .my laptop is being a bitch to me . Just tahnk you to them . I love themm . Two years is a very long journey of my life and I learnt everything . Two years guys , two years :')

My mom hates me , anyone adopt me please :'(

Yes . I give up . I can't do what you want me to do , I can't and I know I have no right to bantah your arahan . I can but no one listening what I want to say and do . I'm not a kid . I have feelings , I have heart and most of all I'm hurtless . She asked me to do this , do that . Fine I still cando it . But when it comes to this one shit thing , I'm sorry I can't do that . You can't force me to do that . I can't tell what she asked me to do on my blog because it's my personal problem . Just don't you hate it when your mom force you to do a thing that you really don't want to do . I give up I give up I give up with my family . Everybody think I have a perfect family , happy family and everybody compliment my family . They don't know the truth behind every single things about my life .

Yes I do I have a lovely and great dad . I love him . He let me do what I want , he let me chase what I want in my life , he let me be what I want , he support me and he he hee let me chase my dream . Most of all , he is the only place I can be free and happy . What I want is not even illegal or shit things . It's the right thing and I just want that . Sometimes I am crazy and do stupid things but he always support me . I love him more than anything in this world . He knows what all teenager want , my dad pun dulu muda . I think he knows how it feels when someone didn't support her/his child to do what they want . Dad , you married a wrong woman . Not that wrong , she don't know what I want and she don't let me do what I really want to do in my life .

My mom ? She don't even support me . She she she HATES me . she only cares about her how to say ? I don't know how to describe and say it . She only think that I'm such a trouble maker , always humiliate her and I'm such a wild youth . Mom , I'm not . I never do that stupid things . I swear to Allah , I'm not . I'm not wild . You never heard a word called hyper , mom ? I'm sick of it . She always threatened me to sent me dekat asrama or school far far far away from my family . If you hate me that much . Just find a family that want to take care of me and adopt me . I know I can still success if I stay in my school . I can I'll prove it ti you one fine day , mom . You never let me do what I want . Much worse than that , you forced me to do what you want me to do . That's unfair mom . That's not fair . It;s my life . Pleasee , let me do . At least support me , mom . But you're not . Just be my mom and support me like others mom do to their daughter . I'm jealous of everyonee who have a very caring mom . Gais , you are so lucky . Let me stop here , I can't keep writing anymore . Slowly it kills me from the inside

I LOVE YOU MOM I REALLY DO BUT PLEASE LET ME BE FREE :'(

First Day Of School . Nervous + Excited - Hyper :D

First Day Of School in 2012

Well so far so good . We met each other . Firstly of course we screamed each other name and ran and hug hug hahaha . Then we started talking about how we spent our holiday , don't you miss me and everything . I beli them some presents and thank god they like it . Hahaha I miss them so much . My pedos friends . They can't be replace and cannot be replace . They are my girls , my baby and my honey . Hahahaha and and of course I usha my crush , Pottamus ~ He is so cute and and handsome . Haish , I bet he don't even know I'm in love with him and he don't even know that I nevermind hehehe . My first day of school and the rest went fine . So far , nothing bad happens at us and and yeah man , Tan and me . We're in the same class yess . Hahaha ouh got to go . Wanna go somewhere after this byebyee ~

Two Years Already :')

Last Two Year Memories - Last Day Of School 2010 in 1 Delta

We're in 1 Delta . Oh my god , can I go back in that time and rewind all of this things . I miss this I miss them most off all I miss 1 Deltarian :')

Last Year Memories - Awesome Peoples in 2 Lambda

Lol No Pictures Of Us because I didn't bring my camera :p But it was very fun class . I admit it ;')

Tuesday, 3 January 2012

Malacca 030112 ♥

My cousin's family and I went to Malacca today , well quite fun because my another cousin didn't join us . She's funny and sometimes can be so so annoying but hahaha I love her . She's my baby boo :*

I went to Malacca to send my cousin , Amira to her Maktab Perguruan Melaka . Well such a great journey . Here are some picturess . I hate the hotel like seriously . Hate hate hatee . Layanan dia tak macam pssshh whatever bitch . But beach boys dia handsome hahaha so handsomee . I stalked them hahahaa but I'm not gonna stay at the hotel again . Services dia asdfghjkl . Grr , paq them . Hahaha nah the pictures .