I'm the one who should back off , now he's yours :')

Don't you feel like a piece of shit when someone try to steal your crush ? I feel it . She's prettier than me , she's cute , she's fair and most of all she's beautiful and ada nice hair . I know who I am , I'm not blaming anyone . I'm the one who guilty . I started to fall in love with you , I get jealous easily but I have no right to be . I don't know what the hell is going on right now . I hate this feeling . It hurts me a lot , gais . I can't hold on anymore . I'm sick of being hurt , insecure and jealousy . I'm gonna go on with my life . MOVING ON . It's hard but I don't want to waste my life with chasing after you . You are the most beautiful things I ever had , now it's somebody's turn . So , I give up . I'm not gonna stop her or call her bitch or anything that will hurt her feelings . I'm not because I know how it feel when someone hurt my feelings . More than you feel like a piece of shit , more worse than that . You thought that no one love you anymore , and emotional . So , I'm so sick of it .

From now on , I'm moving on . I'll try . I don't want to be in love anymore unless someone come into my life and replace my ex-crush . My ex-crush is form 3 next year form 4 . Hmm , I want to enjoy my life and gonna reach my top ! That's it ! Stop looking back and do what I want . Byebyee my hottest crush ever :') 

I move on I'll try okaay ? byebyeee gais :)

For that girl , don't break his heart or I break your face . He's the nicest guy I ever met .

I'm smiling but only God knows what inside my feelings  :)

We're jogging like a boss !

I woke up at 7.30 in the morning . We jogged at 8 am because Ika , she's late . I text her ' kau on the way ke buat jalan ? ' hahahaha okaay see our picture ? such a mess . Oh My God , we look terrible in it . Hahaha I don't care as long we had fun . We're talking about hot guys , ex and others :) 

She really made my day , eventhough we're not so close because we were in different class at school  but if you mess up with her . I'm gonna cut your ball of and kick your ass . She's pretty , she's cute and she's awesome . I love her . She's my ' fun friend ' We had lot of fun together , getting in trouble together , do stupid and craziness things together and most of all she rock my world ! Uhh ,  I remember this moment . Last year , Hari Keusahawanan Day - my dad can't take us at school after Hari Keusahawanan Day . Then we decided to walk . Yes we are crazy . But then halfway , we took a cab because hello we can't walk for 15 kilometres . Damn tired . and this moment , last yea we went Giant to buy something for class and we shopped there for 2 hours and it's almost 12.00 pm . Hurry up or we might late to go to school :p Hahahaha how crazy are we on that beautiful time and moments . Hahahaa well there's a lot of crazy things we did together , a lot ! :-) By the way I got to go , my mom want to use my laptop to do her assignment . Byebyeee gais :)

Yes I'm afraid of taking chances .

Yes I'm afraid of taking chances . It's not that I'm such a coward person , but I'm scared if I make one more step toward you , because all is waiting a regret . I hate me . But then , I heard this song . Waiting Outside The Lines by Greyson Chance . He made me realize that I shouldn't living inside the box . I should fight for my life . I  never enjoy my life . So from now on , I'm gonna fight for me and my own life . I'm sick of peoples who control my life . I'm not your toy , I'm not your whatever you think . I am me . I'm gonna reach my top one day from now on :-) 

Rules and regulation is the biggest problem . Well , rules are made to be broken . I hope someone will wait for me outside the line :') One day baby , I'm gonna reach what I want . I should think what I want in my life . No one will gonna control my life anymore . Thank you Greyson Chance because sang this song and give me some inspiration in my life . You're the best singer ever , boy . I love this song :')

I'm Lifeless and I Know It ♥

Heee my third video  . Once again make sure you turn off my music background . Just scroll down and pause the play button okaay . Enjoy my annoying video . Well . I'm so lifeless and I have nothing to do . So , I made this video . I'm sorry if you don't like it . I don't live to please you . It's my blog . Haters gonna hate kan ? But thank you for watching my video :')

Meet My Siblings Gais ♥

Enjoyy my videeoo :-)

I don't chase after anyone anymore . If you wanna walk out my life I'll hold the fucking door open for you .

I'm not slut . I know what I want , what I need . I know who I am . I'm just tired . Like seriously if you want to get the hell out of my life , I'll hold the fucking door open to you . Macam ni ah kawan kaan , you used to be my friends , my awesome friends in the world . Hahahaha well I miss that . You are the best guy friend I ever had . I will miss that :) 

I feel so relief when I tell you my problem and you made some jokes to cheer me up . Zaman sekarang , mana nak cari kawan sejati ouh :'( 

But , I can't stop you . If you wanna go , you may go . Life goes on right ? So , maybe I'm gonna try to fix our friendship okay ? I promise . If not , err Idk :I 

But for now , I mess up real bad ! I'm sorry buddy :I

It's all about Tumblr , my baby ♥

Enjoy my stupid video , before you watch my video make sure you turn off my music background . scroll down and press pause . Then , you can watch my video clearly and hahahaa thank you guys for wasting your time watching my video . My video is kinda annoying . because of my voice .  But anyways .So sorrry . I love you :')

Wohooo we're back babeyh :)

Eeee , i know my face nampak creepy . Just came back from school and haven't showered yet . So , i look terrible in this picture . Well , I don't mind at all . Hikhik a picture can describes a thousand things in life . So what can you see from my picture ? How can you describe what I feel right now ?  See my eyes ? My eyes is  so errr big ? and and describes a thousand things in it . See my smile ? I'm not faking my smile at this time , it is real . It's real . I smile because of somethings that really release my mind . I feel so calm and hahahah young 

Today 17 October 2011 , Monday . Something really matter my mind and I solve my problem today . Now I feel so calm and thanks to God . Now , I can study without stress and pressure . Syukur kehadrat Ilahi :)

Later I exam , so I have to pray and do good things :) So , I can pass the exam and mendapat berkat . Well , I jadi baik sangat ni . Back to real me . Oh My God , I love todaaaay . 5.20 - 5.50 pm . This time , hihihi secret lorh . Oh gtg , my mom is babbling at me because I didn't shower yet . Byebyeee can't stand to hear she nagging . Byebyeee :-)

I am Insecure but I Do Miss You A Lot :'(

Yes , I'm insecure . I know I'm not good enough to fall in love with him . Eventhough he's in form 3 , I still can see him everyday at school . I miss him . I miss chatting with him , on the phone with him , I miss him . Just don't treat this way . But I think I was wrong . I misunderstood . I blame everything on you , mad at you , ignore you , hate you and didn't want to talk to you . I'm the one who guilty . When I know the truth , I am so shame and scared to apologize . Well , you know me . I'm stubborn , I hate to make a first step , I think I annoy you or you doesn't want to talk to me at all . That's why I ignore you . Tonight . well it's 2 am already , so this morning . I feel so guilty , scared to meet you . I would like to say SORRY . I'm scared that it will gonna ended up like this and it actually happen right now , RIGHT NOW . I can feel the pain in my chest . I can feel it . It's hurt . I don't know what to do now . Either say sorry to him or ignore him . But if i said sorry , he will say ' Sorry for what ? ' And uhh , I can embarrassing myself in front of him . Nah , I should focus to study now . If he is the best for me . He will show up in my life once again and light up my world like nobody else . But if not , I guess our friendship is end right here . But I don't want that and I will never make it happen . I will do anything even it the stupidest things in the world . I'm goonna do that . Well now , I gtg Ihave to study then go back to sleep . Byebyee gais :) 

dis bich iz reli trabeling my lyf - this bitch is really troubling my life !

Oh My God . Stop troubling my world , biatch ! Like seriously . First three months I know you . You are so kind , cute , helpful and perfect . After four months I know you . You're not the same anymore . yeah , it's killing me . You started to ignore me , talk bad , psycho and never being nice to me again . I miss the old you , girl (B) . I want the old you , back . You might not cute , pretty , handome or anything else . But in my eyes , you are perfect . I don't want to ruin our friendship . You are the best things I ever had . I love the old you . I know you will never be the old you . I cherish every moments I had with you . I appreciate all the sweetest things you did to me . I know it sounds so lesbo . Hahahaha , you will never know who is this person . Either girl or boy or both . Hahahha I can't tell you lah gais . Sorry . too privatee :) 

I just want ' this person ' to know that you are the best fucking best friends in the world . You know the real me , you don't care how weird I am . You know who I like , who I love , who's my crush . You know everything I think . 'This person ' listen to all my story . You know what I hate , what I want and what I do . Most of all , he is the best __ best friend in the world . ' This person ' know me so well , so so well . He just like my other siblings . Annoying , awesome but in the same time caring :) 

But unfortunately , I lose this person . This person ignored me , didn't treat me as well and annoying gila babi . I lose my best fucking best friend in the world I think :'( It was so sad and hurt m knowing that you lose your friend . You left me here . Nevermind , I understand . Maybe you tak tahan with my attitude . Sometimes I'm moody , crazy , annoying , happy and whatever shit things . Nevermind , I used to it :')

I would like to say thank you for showing up in my life , but I really want you back as my best friends :)

I JUST WANT THE OLD YOU

Prs's Open House Day :D

Okaaay , it was so cool like oh my god . I didn't expect that would be many people came to our open house and hell yeah , I'm so tired but still enjoyed this day . Gais , it was so cool . You should be there too . Heh , actually many people came because they don't want to enter their class . Well you know ' ponteng class ' Hahahah that's their matter lah , i don't care . On that day . Aliah and Alyssa went to Farahin's house and made some cookies for prs's open house day . My mom pick them at 11 o'clock and then we went to school so early . Then we hangout in prs's room until 1:00 pm . Okaay then we started our duty . Okaaay here some pictures of prs's open house day .

Seeeeeeeee , so many peoples came to our open house !

See man did this . Isn't it beautiful ? 

Meet Fazween , Dahlia and our teacher . Err , I tak ingat her name . Hahahha sorry teacher :)

PRS IS HELPFUL 

3 Best Friends :) Akid,Dahlia,Ashman

Easy gais , easy 

Clown ! 

En . Saiful 

This picture is so beautiful :o 

Teachersss !

A lot of fun on this day , just fun . I hope I can rewind to this day and enjoy it once again . I get to know prs's much more further . I saw my crush , I saw he was eating cupcakes , I saw he smile , I saw he was laughing with his friends , I saw him and had a chance to talk to him even just for a second . But it's more than enough .  He is the best medicine to keep me smiling for no reason . Hihihi , okaaay . Enough for this post . Wait for my next post okaaay . Byebyeee gais :)