Yes , I'm insecure . I know I'm not good enough to fall in love with him . Eventhough he's in form 3 , I still can see him everyday at school . I miss him . I miss chatting with him , on the phone with him , I miss him . Just don't treat this way . But I think I was wrong . I misunderstood . I blame everything on you , mad at you , ignore you , hate you and didn't want to talk to you . I'm the one who guilty . When I know the truth , I am so shame and scared to apologize . Well , you know me . I'm stubborn , I hate to make a first step , I think I annoy you or you doesn't want to talk to me at all . That's why I ignore you . Tonight . well it's 2 am already , so this morning . I feel so guilty , scared to meet you . I would like to say SORRY . I'm scared that it will gonna ended up like this and it actually happen right now , RIGHT NOW . I can feel the pain in my chest . I can feel it . It's hurt . I don't know what to do now . Either say sorry to him or ignore him . But if i said sorry , he will say ' Sorry for what ? ' And uhh , I can embarrassing myself in front of him . Nah , I should focus to study now . If he is the best for me . He will show up in my life once again and light up my world like nobody else . But if not , I guess our friendship is end right here . But I don't want that and I will never make it happen . I will do anything even it the stupidest things in the world . I'm goonna do that . Well now , I gtg Ihave to study then go back to sleep . Byebyee gais :)
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